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[Babylon]

Originally Posted by BLUNT-MAN

Y'all are prolly gonna shit on me & Ill prolly regret it in tha mornin but I'm fucked up on Valium/Clonidine & some other prescribed meds & i wanna get this off my chest cuz fuck it im in tha mood.....

Just wanna say, I Love This Site & tha people ive gotten close wit over tha years, Fuck I Even Got Love for My Enemies That I Got Constant Beef With....

Reason why im saying this is, I'm goin thru Opiate W/ds, been doin Oxycontin for tha last 2 years, my tolerance got over 300 milligrams a day($300 worth of pills)...Plus I've done just about every drug there is (besides Crack, Meth, Pcp, & inhalants)..

Anyways... Im about to be on Day 5 of detox tomorrow...& Im doin this Cold turkey with tha help of Valium & Clonidine to help me sleep & some symptoms (doesnt help too much), stilll sick As Fuck, Depressed, & cant sleep for more than 2-3 hours at a time.

I've been depressed for months now, even when i was using, I isolated myself from close friends, girlfriends, but This site has Kept me Sane, Occupied, & thinking of shit other than oxys. And believe it or not, this site has helped me alot through the last few days of w/ds & through my depression over the last few months as well.

~I'm thankful to be apart of this community~

I'd appreciate any support or any experiences y'all might have that could help. SHIT IS ROUGH. But Please Share those experiences through this thread or IMs or PMs...

(Please save the hate for the future & if you're gonna shit on me atleast be a Man & Send it in a battle....)

*I Got Nothing But Love For This Site*

~1~

Both of my parents were addicted to opiates for decades, kept trying to get off of them but couldn't.

My mom then dad died not too long ago, the only people I could actually go too and say anything about the ordeal was the crew forums for the Chloroformers. Tbh I was straight up about to off myself, had already made up my mind and shit about it so I came to LB to say that I wasn't going to be on much longer on the crew forums (Just said I was getting off because I was depressed though.) shortly after that I remembered that fire that I had when doing battles and the fun I had on the forums and decided to just stay a bit longer and in talking to everyone (Contrasted to simply isolating myself from every living being IRL) and how cool everyone was really helped me get my mind off of everything and realize that there is way more to life, and that I'm young and have borderline limitless possibilities for the future. So though people don't really get my reasoning for being so thankful to Dave and all the dudes from AC's/Chloro I accredit shit they've done for helping me out of the worst portion of my life so far.

Now I'm about to be in college years before I should be, and plan on getting a degree in Astrobiology along with Psychology. Moral of the shit is life is what you make it tbh, sounds cliche as fuck but when you let bad shit that's happened to you define you it'll be shitty. When you let it go and realize you can't change the past so it's stupid to be living in it you'll be alright.

Stay up OP, get off that shit. My parents were pitiful because of it, be happy you don't have a young ass kid seeing you struggling with drug addiction(s).

[Babylon]

Originally Posted by BLUNT-MAN

Y'all are prolly gonna shit on me & Ill prolly regret it in tha mornin but I'm fucked up on Valium/Clonidine & some other prescribed meds & i wanna get this off my chest cuz fuck it im in tha mood.....

Just wanna say, I Love This Site & tha people ive gotten close wit over tha years, Fuck I Even Got Love for My Enemies That I Got Constant Beef With....

Reason why im saying this is, I'm goin thru Opiate W/ds, been doin Oxycontin for tha last 2 years, my tolerance got over 300 milligrams a day($300 worth of pills)...Plus I've done just about every drug there is (besides Crack, Meth, Pcp, & inhalants)..

Anyways... Im about to be on Day 5 of detox tomorrow...& Im doin this Cold turkey with tha help of Valium & Clonidine to help me sleep & some symptoms (doesnt help too much), stilll sick As Fuck, Depressed, & cant sleep for more than 2-3 hours at a time.

I've been depressed for months now, even when i was using, I isolated myself from close friends, girlfriends, but This site has Kept me Sane, Occupied, & thinking of shit other than oxys. And believe it or not, this site has helped me alot through the last few days of w/ds & through my depression over the last few months as well.

~I'm thankful to be apart of this community~

I'd appreciate any support or any experiences y'all might have that could help. SHIT IS ROUGH. But Please Share those experiences through this thread or IMs or PMs...

(Please save the hate for the future & if you're gonna shit on me atleast be a Man & Send it in a battle....)

*I Got Nothing But Love For This Site*

~1~

Both of my parents were addicted to opiates for decades, kept trying to get off of them but couldn't.

My mom then dad died not too long ago, the only people I could actually go too and say anything about the ordeal was the crew forums for the Chloroformers. Tbh I was straight up about to off myself, had already made up my mind and shit about it so I came to LB to say that I wasn't going to be on much longer on the crew forums (Just said I was getting off because I was depressed though.) shortly after that I remembered that fire that I had when doing battles and the fun I had on the forums and decided to just stay a bit longer and in talking to everyone (Contrasted to simply isolating myself from every living being IRL) and how cool everyone was really helped me get my mind off of everything and realize that there is way more to life, and that I'm young and have borderline limitless possibilities for the future. So though people don't really get my reasoning for being so thankful to Dave and all the dudes from AC's/Chloro I accredit shit they've done for helping me out of the worst portion of my life so far.

Now I'm about to be in college years before I should be, and plan on getting a degree in Astrobiology along with Psychology. Moral of the shit is life is what you make it tbh, sounds cliche as fuck but when you let bad shit that's happened to you define you it'll be shitty. When you let it go and realize you can't change the past so it's stupid to be living in it you'll be alright.

Stay up OP, get off that shit. My parents were pitiful because of it, be happy you don't have a young ass kid seeing you struggling with drug addiction(s).

Originally Posted by BLUNT-MAN

Just wanna say, I Love This Site & tha people ive gotten close wit over tha years,

like Macc?





















sorry i had to. but be easy

Originally Posted by BLUNT-MAN

Just wanna say, I Love This Site & tha people ive gotten close wit over tha years,

like Macc?





















sorry i had to. but be easy

[The Dope Man]

G'looks on the responses..Shit's the hardest thing Ive ever had to do..

Basically im just fuckin wit valium & shit to help me sleep (doesnt work, just feel spaced out)...Im almost through the puking/shittin my brains out, skin crawlin, stomach cramps, Restless Legs (RLS)..Im on Day 5 cold turkey, i turned down the suboxone program cuz i didnt wanna rely on suttin else again..

Finally lifted some weights this morning..

It helps alot hearin y'all stories/personal experiences so keep em comin...

@Dave bro you just don't understand. Has nothing to do with being a man. On the outside, my life's perfect (besides drug use). After using oxys for so long it fucks with your brain, the serontin & dopamine levels in brain go down and you cant help but feel depressed n shit. I only use benzos (xanax) just to help sleep, doesnt really help to much with the depression tbh just feel spaced out. I used to agree with what your sayin abbout depression, but try doing tons of pills or any drug everyday for 2 + years then tell me your head's not fucked up when you try n stop using.

@V3numb Imma try that, g'looks

@Pugz yeah weed can get me a few hours of sleep & help me eat a lil bit. Ive seen some pretty bad addiction too, not sayin mines the worse or anything. But my whole town's hooked on Oxys/heroin. Luckily, my good friends only experimented years ago so they dont fuck wit it like i do, so i got their support.

@Crysis damn bro, that's some sad shit. That's where Im not tryna be. Helps hearing that shit, real talk. I'm only 22, i been fuckin wit hard drugs since i was 19, just wanna put the ride to an end. Be careful goin to college that's where i got into them.. Plus if addiction runs in ur family like mine does then your more likely to follow but it looks like your a smart dude.

@Moni your 100% right about that. been tryna stay occupied, but i legt have dreams of doin pills. I cut all my contacts off with the dudes i used to associate drugs with & got a new number n shit. I used to get like 5 texts a day sayin "blues" "Im good" "You need?", shit was impossible to say no. I wouldnt consider any of them my friends. Shit, they'd steal from me if it meant them getting high anyways.

G'looks again on the responses. Love hearin y'all experiences. & Dave's right about prescription pills in America. Shits an epidemic. One of my old connects used to pick up 200-300 oxy30s every 4-5 days & sell them for 30$ each. & I would need atleast 4-5 to feel normal, 8-10 to be sorta high. Crooked fuckin doctors lol

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Originally Posted by Row

like Macc?

















sorry i had to. but be easy

LOL its cool... actually havent talked to that dude in awhile, if any1 has him as a friend on facebook he posts some funny ass statuses

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Btw, I'm not depressed in tha sense of suicidal, i guess im more chemically depressed cuz i got so much too be thankful for.

[The Dope Man]

G'looks on the responses..Shit's the hardest thing Ive ever had to do..

Basically im just fuckin wit valium & shit to help me sleep (doesnt work, just feel spaced out)...Im almost through the puking/shittin my brains out, skin crawlin, stomach cramps, Restless Legs (RLS)..Im on Day 5 cold turkey, i turned down the suboxone program cuz i didnt wanna rely on suttin else again..

Finally lifted some weights this morning..

It helps alot hearin y'all stories/personal experiences so keep em comin...

@Dave bro you just don't understand. Has nothing to do with being a man. On the outside, my life's perfect (besides drug use). After using oxys for so long it fucks with your brain, the serontin & dopamine levels in brain go down and you cant help but feel depressed n shit. I only use benzos (xanax) just to help sleep, doesnt really help to much with the depression tbh just feel spaced out. I used to agree with what your sayin abbout depression, but try doing tons of pills or any drug everyday for 2 + years then tell me your head's not fucked up when you try n stop using.

@V3numb Imma try that, g'looks

@Pugz yeah weed can get me a few hours of sleep & help me eat a lil bit. Ive seen some pretty bad addiction too, not sayin mines the worse or anything. But my whole town's hooked on Oxys/heroin. Luckily, my good friends only experimented years ago so they dont fuck wit it like i do, so i got their support.

@Crysis damn bro, that's some sad shit. That's where Im not tryna be. Helps hearing that shit, real talk. I'm only 22, i been fuckin wit hard drugs since i was 19, just wanna put the ride to an end. Be careful goin to college that's where i got into them.. Plus if addiction runs in ur family like mine does then your more likely to follow but it looks like your a smart dude.

@Moni your 100% right about that. been tryna stay occupied, but i legt have dreams of doin pills. I cut all my contacts off with the dudes i used to associate drugs with & got a new number n shit. I used to get like 5 texts a day sayin "blues" "Im good" "You need?", shit was impossible to say no. I wouldnt consider any of them my friends. Shit, they'd steal from me if it meant them getting high anyways.

G'looks again on the responses. Love hearin y'all experiences. & Dave's right about prescription pills in America. Shits an epidemic. One of my old connects used to pick up 200-300 oxy30s every 4-5 days & sell them for 30$ each. & I would need atleast 4-5 to feel normal, 8-10 to be sorta high. Crooked fuckin doctors lol

---------- Post added at 11:52 AM ---------- Previous post was at 11:50 AM ----------

Originally Posted by Row

like Macc?

















sorry i had to. but be easy

LOL its cool... actually havent talked to that dude in awhile, if any1 has him as a friend on facebook he posts some funny ass statuses

---------- Post added at 11:54 AM ---------- Previous post was at 11:52 AM ----------

Btw, I'm not depressed in tha sense of suicidal, i guess im more chemically depressed cuz i got so much too be thankful for.

@BLUNT-MAN Good to hear bro. Last thing you want is to bring harm to other people or do more harm to your body. I was about to off myself when I was younger. I pretty much went thru the same shit that @Crysis says went through which is a tough luck bro hope things are straight with you now. Mom and dad straight dope fiends..dad killed my mom over 5 dollars..pops life in jail...sister hated my ass and I never knew why so ran off with her boyfriend..my granny died from overdose off some despreaant and I was on the edge of the cliff by that time cuz I ain't no any other close relative. I found basketball first and the site was like a side hustle to keep my occupied. I joined the site 2 and a half weeks after I got adopted and just been going at it since then. Now I got a new loving family, friends, girlfriend, a highly ranked player in the nation and going to college in couple of years. Life is crazy forreal but stay humble and don't take it for granted. Damn I feel cleansed after that lol

@BLUNT-MAN Good to hear bro. Last thing you want is to bring harm to other people or do more harm to your body. I was about to off myself when I was younger. I pretty much went thru the same shit that @Crysis says went through which is a tough luck bro hope things are straight with you now. Mom and dad straight dope fiends..dad killed my mom over 5 dollars..pops life in jail...sister hated my ass and I never knew why so ran off with her boyfriend..my granny died from overdose off some despreaant and I was on the edge of the cliff by that time cuz I ain't no any other close relative. I found basketball first and the site was like a side hustle to keep my occupied. I joined the site 2 and a half weeks after I got adopted and just been going at it since then. Now I got a new loving family, friends, girlfriend, a highly ranked player in the nation and going to college in couple of years. Life is crazy forreal but stay humble and don't take it for granted. Damn I feel cleansed after that lol

[The Dope Man]

Originally Posted by Moni

@BLUNT-MAN Good to hear bro. Last thing you want is to bring harm to other people or do more harm to your body. I was about to off myself when I was younger. I pretty much went thru the same shit that @Crysis says went through which is a tough luck bro hope things are straight with you now. Mom and dad straight dope fiends..dad killed my mom over 5 dollars..pops life in jail...sister hated my ass and I never knew why so ran off with her boyfriend..my granny died from overdose off some despreaant and I was on the edge of the cliff by that time cuz I ain't no any other close relative. I found basketball first and the site was like a side hustle to keep my occupied. I joined the site 2 and a half weeks after I got adopted and just been going at it since then. Now I got a new loving family, friends, girlfriend, a highly ranked player in the nation and going to college in couple of years. Life is crazy forreal but stay humble and don't take it for granted. Damn I feel cleansed after that lol

@Moni damn homie... Glad shit is better for you bro. y'all making my addiction lookin like a scrapped knee aha. But your 100% right in ya last few lines. I'm not tryna have this shit follow me for the rest of life.. Im about to start ballin again since the weathers gettin nice. & like i said, be careful in college.. mad drugs flood through college... I was doin oxys, heroin, shrooms, acid, coke, xanax... shit is easy to get & hard to say no too.. Who Wouldnt Wanna Feel Euphoric? But stay away from that shit, you kno first hand what it can do.

@Jason exactly what i was sayin...

[The Dope Man]

Originally Posted by Moni

@BLUNT-MAN Good to hear bro. Last thing you want is to bring harm to other people or do more harm to your body. I was about to off myself when I was younger. I pretty much went thru the same shit that @Crysis says went through which is a tough luck bro hope things are straight with you now. Mom and dad straight dope fiends..dad killed my mom over 5 dollars..pops life in jail...sister hated my ass and I never knew why so ran off with her boyfriend..my granny died from overdose off some despreaant and I was on the edge of the cliff by that time cuz I ain't no any other close relative. I found basketball first and the site was like a side hustle to keep my occupied. I joined the site 2 and a half weeks after I got adopted and just been going at it since then. Now I got a new loving family, friends, girlfriend, a highly ranked player in the nation and going to college in couple of years. Life is crazy forreal but stay humble and don't take it for granted. Damn I feel cleansed after that lol

@Moni damn homie... Glad shit is better for you bro. y'all making my addiction lookin like a scrapped knee aha. But your 100% right in ya last few lines. I'm not tryna have this shit follow me for the rest of life.. Im about to start ballin again since the weathers gettin nice. & like i said, be careful in college.. mad drugs flood through college... I was doin oxys, heroin, shrooms, acid, coke, xanax... shit is easy to get & hard to say no too.. Who Wouldnt Wanna Feel Euphoric? But stay away from that shit, you kno first hand what it can do.

@Jason exactly what i was sayin...

[Subreal]

Originally Posted by Jason

lol i used to think this way .. and to some extent i still do.. i think certain people love attention and use depression as a crutch to get it BUT ..
depression is actually a result of a lack of serotonin
so many people who have serious depression have a biological basis for their depression
no one is above that.. it doesnt matter how much of a "man" you are
same way you bust a nut and no longer have feelings for a chick ..
its hard for a girl to understand how quickly you go from horny - to bored
its hard for someone who doesnt have depression to understand the magnitude of its effects on your body. its a biological problem not just a mindstate that you can turn off by thinking positively .. although it obviously helps to surround yourself with positivity .. many depressed people are unable to even experience the elated happiness most people take for granted

also, as for your manslaughter comment ... people have been acquitted in the past for murder when they were drunk because they were so drunk that they literally were not in control of themselves and were not held accountable .. debatable subject but yea .. the point is that depression is very serious .. and even tho i study about it i still struggle to see how it manifests in certain people .. but i do respect it

ru a fucking Psychology major? be honest.

@BLUNT-MAN you the dude i hate most on here probably, but it's LB. Get your fucking life together and once you get off that shit, don't go back.

[Subreal]

Originally Posted by Jason

lol i used to think this way .. and to some extent i still do.. i think certain people love attention and use depression as a crutch to get it BUT ..
depression is actually a result of a lack of serotonin
so many people who have serious depression have a biological basis for their depression
no one is above that.. it doesnt matter how much of a "man" you are
same way you bust a nut and no longer have feelings for a chick ..
its hard for a girl to understand how quickly you go from horny - to bored
its hard for someone who doesnt have depression to understand the magnitude of its effects on your body. its a biological problem not just a mindstate that you can turn off by thinking positively .. although it obviously helps to surround yourself with positivity .. many depressed people are unable to even experience the elated happiness most people take for granted

also, as for your manslaughter comment ... people have been acquitted in the past for murder when they were drunk because they were so drunk that they literally were not in control of themselves and were not held accountable .. debatable subject but yea .. the point is that depression is very serious .. and even tho i study about it i still struggle to see how it manifests in certain people .. but i do respect it

ru a fucking Psychology major? be honest.

@BLUNT-MAN you the dude i hate most on here probably, but it's LB. Get your fucking life together and once you get off that shit, don't go back.

> Posts thread while under the influence of various prescription medications.

> Is on day 5 of detox.

> Posts thread while under the influence of various prescription medications.

> Is on day 5 of detox.

[The Dope Man]

detox from opiates.. the doctor prescribed me Valium to help with the W/ds.... nice try tho

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& clonidine, but thats not really a drug to abuse....

[The Dope Man]

detox from opiates.. the doctor prescribed me Valium to help with the W/ds.... nice try tho

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& clonidine, but thats not really a drug to abuse....

[Óðinn]

Originally Posted by Moni

find an activity to take ya mind of the shit that's been going on.

^This. Cold Turkey means taking nothing... start exercising, the gym & running... That always helps.

[Óðinn]

Originally Posted by Moni

find an activity to take ya mind of the shit that's been going on.

^This. Cold Turkey means taking nothing... start exercising, the gym & running... That always helps.

[The Dope Man]

@2FUEL Nah, cold turkey means no tapering down from your doses or using suboxone (an opiate substitute)...

You can take other medication to help sleep & make you a lil more comfortable..doesnt help much tho tbh...

^ that's coming from my clinician & doctor...

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Plus any1 whos been thru w/ds knows its impossible to run & exercise for atleast 4 days... you can maybe walk down the street but even thats hard as fuck. Its like having a really bad flu, but worse lol

[The Dope Man]

@2FUEL Nah, cold turkey means no tapering down from your doses or using suboxone (an opiate substitute)...

You can take other medication to help sleep & make you a lil more comfortable..doesnt help much tho tbh...

^ that's coming from my clinician & doctor...

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Plus any1 whos been thru w/ds knows its impossible to run & exercise for atleast 4 days... you can maybe walk down the street but even thats hard as fuck. Its like having a really bad flu, but worse lol