Im fucked up

[S A L T]

I'm fucked up broskies.

I remember this community growing up my first account was when I was about 13. I'm 21 now.

I've been inactive lately. College has me busy, you know.

I apologize for venting and I apologize for being weak yo, but this is like my only place where nobody knows me and I can just let out this shit that I bottle up without people I know seeing how weak af i am.

Divorce is common, i know. Since I've been able to memorize, my fam has been divorced and I live with my military father who delt with his problems for my entire life by working and working. I moved around alot and basically lived my entire life in a house of a workaholic military diciplined house. I didnt get to see my mom and sister and brother much, to this day I feel disconnected from them. And I honestly hate my father, knowing him as I've grown up.

All the moving and shit I was introverted guys like I don't know what relationships or genuine friendships are like. I just pretend like all the damn time.

I went through a 1.5 year period of serious depression when I had a severe acne breakout at a new school I moved to the middle of my junior year. It went away and I became so much of a better more positive person because of it but damn it's coming back..

Like I taught myself my entire life to embrace loneliness and I gave my heart to someone for the 10th time just to let them crush it again.

I've lost hope guys. But the worse thing about it is theres just a shred left that makes me want to keep trying and honestly I just really don't want to anymore guys.

Im fucking balling right now I just want to be ok with being alone yo.
Fuck this shit. I hate everyone yo.

Ima gonna start writing again, it helps the most. I'm sorry to talk yall ear off, if anyone even reads this. But this shit just had to be typed out.

It just sucks admitting you're weak. There's so much worse out there and I'm just mad for a fucked up family and life where I never got to genuinely connect with anyone, but that shit weighs on me for some reason.

Peace homies.

[S A L T]

I'm fucked up broskies.

I remember this community growing up my first account was when I was about 13. I'm 21 now.

I've been inactive lately. College has me busy, you know.

I apologize for venting and I apologize for being weak yo, but this is like my only place where nobody knows me and I can just let out this shit that I bottle up without people I know seeing how weak af i am.

Divorce is common, i know. Since I've been able to memorize, my fam has been divorced and I live with my military father who delt with his problems for my entire life by working and working. I moved around alot and basically lived my entire life in a house of a workaholic military diciplined house. I didnt get to see my mom and sister and brother much, to this day I feel disconnected from them. And I honestly hate my father, knowing him as I've grown up.

All the moving and shit I was introverted guys like I don't know what relationships or genuine friendships are like. I just pretend like all the damn time.

I went through a 1.5 year period of serious depression when I had a severe acne breakout at a new school I moved to the middle of my junior year. It went away and I became so much of a better more positive person because of it but damn it's coming back..

Like I taught myself my entire life to embrace loneliness and I gave my heart to someone for the 10th time just to let them crush it again.

I've lost hope guys. But the worse thing about it is theres just a shred left that makes me want to keep trying and honestly I just really don't want to anymore guys.

Im fucking balling right now I just want to be ok with being alone yo.
Fuck this shit. I hate everyone yo.

Ima gonna start writing again, it helps the most. I'm sorry to talk yall ear off, if anyone even reads this. But this shit just had to be typed out.

It just sucks admitting you're weak. There's so much worse out there and I'm just mad for a fucked up family and life where I never got to genuinely connect with anyone, but that shit weighs on me for some reason.

Peace homies.

Send 8 faggot

























































Just kidding. Chin up tiger.

Send 8 faggot

























































Just kidding. Chin up tiger.

[exwhyzee]

push thru. you'll be glad u did

[exwhyzee]

push thru. you'll be glad u did

^This. God Bless you, Stoy. Keep your head up. Better days are ahead.

^This. God Bless you, Stoy. Keep your head up. Better days are ahead.

[ILLoKWENT]

faggit, as long as i dont hear the words, 'i want to kill myself'... you kewl wit me... stop feeling sorry for yourself and, if you cant or have a hard time improving life for yourself, try to improve the life for others.... people tend to make the mistake of giving up on life cause shit dont go your way... life dont work that way.. you get what your dealt, and you can choose to be selfish and self centered, thinkin fuck everyone, cause shit aint workin for me... dont be dat nigga, if you cant help yourself, find Gods role and help others.. its alot more rewarding to be a part of someone elses improvement and watch them grow as a person, than givin up on yourself... and women... you still yung bruh.. millions of chicks out dea, keep on da grind and probability is in your favor..

[ILLoKWENT]

faggit, as long as i dont hear the words, 'i want to kill myself'... you kewl wit me... stop feeling sorry for yourself and, if you cant or have a hard time improving life for yourself, try to improve the life for others.... people tend to make the mistake of giving up on life cause shit dont go your way... life dont work that way.. you get what your dealt, and you can choose to be selfish and self centered, thinkin fuck everyone, cause shit aint workin for me... dont be dat nigga, if you cant help yourself, find Gods role and help others.. its alot more rewarding to be a part of someone elses improvement and watch them grow as a person, than givin up on yourself... and women... you still yung bruh.. millions of chicks out dea, keep on da grind and probability is in your favor..

how can yall believe this is legit

how can yall believe this is legit

Prayers sent @StoyMilk. Missy is right, though. God has a plan for everyone, but it is also up to you to accept or reject His plan for you. That's the beauty of free will.

Prayers sent @StoyMilk. Missy is right, though. God has a plan for everyone, but it is also up to you to accept or reject His plan for you. That's the beauty of free will.

[BurnTheArsonist]

GET MORE MEDS

[BurnTheArsonist]

GET MORE MEDS

[Denton]

My nigga Stoy gone be alright. keep ya head up pat'na

[Denton]

My nigga Stoy gone be alright. keep ya head up pat'na

[COFFIN DODGER]

bro , what doesnt kill you makes you stronger . you not even half my age , i been through the depression shit when i lost my business , flat and girl in the same year . had to deal with the death of my grndparents and dad . shits hard , but whatever life chucks at you , you have to suck it up and come back stronger . plenty of people in africa and middle east etc going through way worse stuff than what we have to deal with . life aint easy sometimes , but we get one shot , dont waste it by letting self pity eat away at you . say fuck it , i can take WHATEVER life chucks at me , be it sickness , lack of money or friends etc . find a couple of things you enjoy doing and get stuck in , get out with people with similar interests and make friends in real life , not just with folks ( and some weirdos ) online lol . your young , live life with no regrets and find yaself a girl , as it sounds like ya need to get laid fam . but seriously , keep ya head up n be strong , think positive and shit WILL work out in the end .

[COFFIN DODGER]

bro , what doesnt kill you makes you stronger . you not even half my age , i been through the depression shit when i lost my business , flat and girl in the same year . had to deal with the death of my grndparents and dad . shits hard , but whatever life chucks at you , you have to suck it up and come back stronger . plenty of people in africa and middle east etc going through way worse stuff than what we have to deal with . life aint easy sometimes , but we get one shot , dont waste it by letting self pity eat away at you . say fuck it , i can take WHATEVER life chucks at me , be it sickness , lack of money or friends etc . find a couple of things you enjoy doing and get stuck in , get out with people with similar interests and make friends in real life , not just with folks ( and some weirdos ) online lol . your young , live life with no regrets and find yaself a girl , as it sounds like ya need to get laid fam . but seriously , keep ya head up n be strong , think positive and shit WILL work out in the end .