Im fucked up

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I'm fucked up broskies.

I remember this community growing up my first account was when I was about 13. I'm 21 now.

I've been inactive lately. College has me busy, you know.

I apologize for venting and I apologize for being weak yo, but this is like my only place where nobody knows me and I can just let out this shit that I bottle up without people I know seeing how weak af i am.

Divorce is common, i know. Since I've been able to memorize, my fam has been divorced and I live with my military father who delt with his problems for my entire life by working and working. I moved around alot and basically lived my entire life in a house of a workaholic military diciplined house. I didnt get to see my mom and sister and brother much, to this day I feel disconnected from them. And I honestly hate my father, knowing him as I've grown up.

All the moving and shit I was introverted guys like I don't know what relationships or genuine friendships are like. I just pretend like all the damn time.

I went through a 1.5 year period of serious depression when I had a severe acne breakout at a new school I moved to the middle of my junior year. It went away and I became so much of a better more positive person because of it but damn it's coming back..

Like I taught myself my entire life to embrace loneliness and I gave my heart to someone for the 10th time just to let them crush it again.

I've lost hope guys. But the worse thing about it is theres just a shred left that makes me want to keep trying and honestly I just really don't want to anymore guys.

Im fucking balling right now I just want to be ok with being alone yo.
Fuck this shit. I hate everyone yo.

Ima gonna start writing again, it helps the most. I'm sorry to talk yall ear off, if anyone even reads this. But this shit just had to be typed out.

It just sucks admitting you're weak. There's so much worse out there and I'm just mad for a fucked up family and life where I never got to genuinely connect with anyone, but that shit weighs on me for some reason.

Peace homies.

[S A L T]

I'm fucked up broskies.

I remember this community growing up my first account was when I was about 13. I'm 21 now.

I've been inactive lately. College has me busy, you know.

I apologize for venting and I apologize for being weak yo, but this is like my only place where nobody knows me and I can just let out this shit that I bottle up without people I know seeing how weak af i am.

Divorce is common, i know. Since I've been able to memorize, my fam has been divorced and I live with my military father who delt with his problems for my entire life by working and working. I moved around alot and basically lived my entire life in a house of a workaholic military diciplined house. I didnt get to see my mom and sister and brother much, to this day I feel disconnected from them. And I honestly hate my father, knowing him as I've grown up.

All the moving and shit I was introverted guys like I don't know what relationships or genuine friendships are like. I just pretend like all the damn time.

I went through a 1.5 year period of serious depression when I had a severe acne breakout at a new school I moved to the middle of my junior year. It went away and I became so much of a better more positive person because of it but damn it's coming back..

Like I taught myself my entire life to embrace loneliness and I gave my heart to someone for the 10th time just to let them crush it again.

I've lost hope guys. But the worse thing about it is theres just a shred left that makes me want to keep trying and honestly I just really don't want to anymore guys.

Im fucking balling right now I just want to be ok with being alone yo.
Fuck this shit. I hate everyone yo.

Ima gonna start writing again, it helps the most. I'm sorry to talk yall ear off, if anyone even reads this. But this shit just had to be typed out.

It just sucks admitting you're weak. There's so much worse out there and I'm just mad for a fucked up family and life where I never got to genuinely connect with anyone, but that shit weighs on me for some reason.

Peace homies.