I literally broke my right fifth metacarpal against someone's skull and still continued punching the fuck out of that person with a broken hand because I was so drunk and adrenalated that I didn't even care. Now it's like permanently broken and disfigured to the point where you can't even see the pink knuckle. I don't even know if it's still fucking there or if it like exploded or what. I had to go through like six different hand casts and had metal put in my finger from surgery which was taken out of my hand maybe a month ago with no anaesthesia. To this day I still can't clench my hand into a full fist and still go to physical therapy. I'm happy I can type and use a mouse and stuff like that but I'm genuinely scared that I won't be able to defend myself in a fight. Idk... is that hardcore or is that some bitch shit? I feel like a total bitch so I really wouldn't know.
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