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Originally Posted by Just C
It gotten to the stage where it means very little to me. The reward doesn't justify the effort. Whether it's winning a GC or the personal satisfaction.
There's always another title to win. Another cocky mouth shut crawling out the woodwork right behind the last 1. Once I realized that (especially the latter) it ceased being fun and felt more like a never ending, tedious and pointless merrygoround.
In other words. I just can't be fucked.
I've gone from
seeking and relishing a challenge.
To, please someone decent step to me and give me some motivation.
To, someone decent stepping up giving me motivation only to lose all interest somewhere along the line.
To, fuck it I can't be assed at all I'm not even entertaining this anymore this shit is boring.
I've had BARE people call me a duck. But truth is I just couldn't be fucked taking the time and effort. Especially writing and recording a track.
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Having 0 desire left is hard to come back from. Hope you find some, somewhere.