G'looks on the responses..Shit's the hardest thing Ive ever had to do..
Basically im just fuckin wit valium & shit to help me sleep (doesnt work, just feel spaced out)...Im almost through the puking/shittin my brains out, skin crawlin, stomach cramps, Restless Legs (RLS)..Im on Day 5 cold turkey, i turned down the suboxone program cuz i didnt wanna rely on suttin else again..
Finally lifted some weights this morning..
It helps alot hearin y'all stories/personal experiences so keep em comin...
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Dave bro you just don't understand. Has nothing to do with being a man. On the outside, my life's perfect (besides drug use). After using oxys for so long it fucks with your brain, the serontin & dopamine levels in brain go down and you cant help but feel depressed n shit. I only use benzos (xanax) just to help sleep, doesnt really help to much with the depression tbh just feel spaced out. I used to agree with what your sayin abbout depression, but try doing tons of pills or any drug everyday for 2 + years then tell me your head's not fucked up when you try n stop using.
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V3numb Imma try that, g'looks
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Pugz yeah weed can get me a few hours of sleep & help me eat a lil bit. Ive seen some pretty bad addiction too, not sayin mines the worse or anything. But my whole town's hooked on Oxys/heroin. Luckily, my good friends only experimented years ago so they dont fuck wit it like i do, so i got their support.
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Crysis damn bro, that's some sad shit. That's where Im not tryna be. Helps hearing that shit, real talk. I'm only 22, i been fuckin wit hard drugs since i was 19, just wanna put the ride to an end. Be careful goin to college that's where i got into them.. Plus if addiction runs in ur family like mine does then your more likely to follow but it looks like your a smart dude.
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Moni your 100% right about that. been tryna stay occupied, but i legt have dreams of doin pills. I cut all my contacts off with the dudes i used to associate drugs with & got a new number n shit. I used to get like 5 texts a day sayin "blues" "Im good" "You need?", shit was impossible to say no. I wouldnt consider any of them my friends. Shit, they'd steal from me if it meant them getting high anyways.
G'looks again on the responses. Love hearin y'all experiences. & Dave's right about prescription pills in America. Shits an epidemic. One of my old connects used to pick up 200-300 oxy30s every 4-5 days & sell them for 30$ each. & I would need atleast 4-5 to feel normal, 8-10 to be sorta high. Crooked fuckin doctors lol
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like Macc?
sorry i had to. but be easy
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LOL its cool... actually havent talked to that dude in awhile, if any1 has him as a friend on facebook he posts some funny ass statuses
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Btw, I'm not depressed in tha sense of suicidal, i guess im more chemically depressed cuz i got so much too be thankful for.