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Originally Posted by BLUNT-MAN
Y'all are prolly gonna shit on me & Ill prolly regret it in tha mornin but I'm fucked up on Valium/Clonidine & some other prescribed meds & i wanna get this off my chest cuz fuck it im in tha mood.....
Just wanna say, I Love This Site & tha people ive gotten close wit over tha years, Fuck I Even Got Love for My Enemies That I Got Constant Beef With....
Reason why im saying this is, I'm goin thru Opiate W/ds, been doin Oxycontin for tha last 2 years, my tolerance got over 300 milligrams a day($300 worth of pills)...Plus I've done just about every drug there is (besides Crack, Meth, Pcp, & inhalants)..
Anyways... Im about to be on Day 5 of detox tomorrow...& Im doin this Cold turkey with tha help of Valium & Clonidine to help me sleep & some symptoms (doesnt help too much), stilll sick As Fuck, Depressed, & cant sleep for more than 2-3 hours at a time.
I've been depressed for months now, even when i was using, I isolated myself from close friends, girlfriends, but This site has Kept me Sane, Occupied, & thinking of shit other than oxys. And believe it or not, this site has helped me alot through the last few days of w/ds & through my depression over the last few months as well.
~I'm thankful to be apart of this community~
I'd appreciate any support or any experiences y'all might have that could help. SHIT IS ROUGH. But Please Share those experiences through this thread or IMs or PMs...
(Please save the hate for the future & if you're gonna shit on me atleast be a Man & Send it in a battle....)
*I Got Nothing But Love For This Site*
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Both of my parents were addicted to opiates for decades, kept trying to get off of them but couldn't.
My mom then dad died not too long ago, the only people I could actually go too and say anything about the ordeal was the crew forums for the Chloroformers. Tbh I was straight up about to off myself, had already made up my mind and shit about it so I came to LB to say that I wasn't going to be on much longer on the crew forums (Just said I was getting off because I was depressed though.) shortly after that I remembered that fire that I had when doing battles and the fun I had on the forums and decided to just stay a bit longer and in talking to everyone (Contrasted to simply isolating myself from every living being IRL) and how cool everyone was really helped me get my mind off of everything and realize that there is way more to life, and that I'm young and have borderline limitless possibilities for the future. So though people don't really get my reasoning for being so thankful to Dave and all the dudes from AC's/Chloro I accredit shit they've done for helping me out of the worst portion of my life so far.
Now I'm about to be in college years before I should be, and plan on getting a degree in Astrobiology along with Psychology. Moral of the shit is life is what you make it tbh, sounds cliche as fuck but when you let bad shit that's happened to you define you it'll be shitty. When you let it go and realize you can't change the past so it's stupid to be living in it you'll be alright.
Stay up OP, get off that shit. My parents were pitiful because of it, be happy you don't have a young ass kid seeing you struggling with drug addiction(s).