When I was 16, I lived in an apartment complex in Atlanta, and there was this girl that lived in the neighborhood nearby. She was the nerdy type and no one really fucked with her cause we thought she was weird. Anyways, I've always been the type of cat that even though I was in the "In" crowd and considered cool, I would kick it with "nerdy" people sometimes and never thought that I was too good to be decent to or be friends with anybody.
So when this girl tried to talk to me and I responded and didn't look down on her, she took a liking to me that became sort of an obsession.
I guess no one ever really talked to her or treated her like a decent person should. I wasn't attracted to her or anything, I was just being friendly.
Anyways, this girl started being obsessed and she was telling me she'd do anything for me. She even started stealing money from her mom to buy me sneakers and shit.
Some of my friends started noticing and when I told them she said she'd do anything for me, they started putting ideas in my head. At that time, we listened to rappers who made it seem like being a "G" and a pimp was everything. Since she said she'd do anything for me, I started asking her to have sex with men for payment. I remember selling her to these dirty old construction workers who lived in the complex. She REALLY didn't want to do it, but I knew she liked me, yet I made it seem like that's what she had to do to prove it to me. Thing is I had no intention of ever being with this girl. She wasn't my type and she was White, and I felt like my boys would have made fun of me for even kicking it with a White girl (I don't think like this anymore, but back then I was naive). I knew that she thought that after doing all these things for me, we would be together so I lead her on. I even had her service me and my friends one night and we ran a throat-train on her. When I look back at that time, I feel really guilty cause I know she would never have done any of those things if I hadn't put her up to it. She only wanted to be with me and thought that that's what she had to do for me to accept her. If I could re-do that whole thing, I'd just be her friend and teach and encourage her to have more self-confidence.
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