Nancy, Dear Diary – 30/10/2011 ...
Another day of emptiness, since you left me in a rush
At night I pray to hear your voice and also feel your touch
Too much to ask to make it last Instead of feeling crushed …
There when you needed me the most, in truth I was your crutch
Endless alcohol abuse, not to mention the violence that followed
Rows & disagreements, throat in agony every time that I swallowed
Relationship borrowed, now lies a missing heart while chest hallow
What’s promised tomorrow, Another 24 hours of stress & sorrow?
Your all I ever think about, but yet seem to be a distant memory
Im not ashamed to say you were the light that gave me energy
Enjoyed waking up beside you, and the other little things involved
The main ingredient to my pain killer until you finally dissolved
Im not suggesting you change or re-arrange the thoughts you process
It feels like im asking constant questions, like have we lost our essence?
Worth another shot? Or lost momentum once the talks settled …
All I want is a relationship without the repercussions and consequences
To get you back where you belong will always be my main mission
I wish you could make the same decision & change how were living
Doesn’t have to feel like a unforgiving prison, unwilling to be giving
If I don’t have you back in my life, my heart & life will remain missing.