i wake up in a hospital bed... shiverin cold in a panic...
physical and emotional damage wit the grim reaper holdin my hand n'
saying "your time is near"... i blinked my eyes and homie just vanished!
doctors rushed in the room wit the blankest fuzziest faces
screamin "the patient has fully awaken! take him to the surgery room and prepare for procedure!"
before i knew it they knocked me out with anesthesia!...
woke up a second time... strapped to a white surgical chair...
looked at one of the nurses... beneath her mask... under the surface just there...
was my ex girlfriend! saw the other two doctors...
one was my dead brother! the other my abusive father!
glanced around the room it was dimly lit and full of machines...
one was a heart monitor wit my weak pulse on the screen...
my ex girl made an incision in my chest... made a painful slit then
ripped out my heart and started replacin it wit
one that had veins up in it that pumped hatred up em especially made for women!
then my dead brother who was iced in a drive by
shot an optical lazer up in my eyes
that darkened my view of the world... but made me see the injustice and crime...
my abusive father pumped more anesthesia that paralyzed me and had me in a trance see?
couldnt feel my sense of manhood or my hands and feet...
health class isnt the way to learn the birds and the bees...
well... the way he tried to show me how to be a man wasnt workin at least...
he taught me how to act like a man wit the most worst example by far
when he had my mom gripped agains the wall, chokin her hard...
when he did that... he took a scapel... cut a wound up open and large...
then tried to surgically stitch it back up... left an emotional scar...
closed my eyes... my body was cut up and battered highly...
all i could hear was the sound of the heart monitor whining.....
the sound of me flatlining.........
beeeeeeeeeeeeeeep....